Hello, I am theo:)

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 { 5:39 AM }

in that instance, it all just sux. realli. i dont understand why it bcam like that. i questioned myself y. mani times..i dont haf an answer. when u lie, it's due to a break of promise. but when u dunt even promise, that's not a lie anymore. yes..i'm disappointed in human nature. ppl onli care about the outside. wat matters most to them is the exterior. when u r popular, u r rich, u r famous, ppl flock to u, but when u r poor, rundown..nobody bothers about u. y is the world so cold n realistic? i'm more depressed. i've learnt to change, but it didnt matter anymore. i'm baq to my old depressed self. anger just seized me..is the outside so important? no..to me, it doesnt matter. i've learnt to see each day as a new learning experience. there r many things awaiting for us. yes. i did learn sth at the end of the day, but it was sth that made me sad..the feeling juz rekindled. superficial wounds can heal in a matter of time. it'll haf scars, but soon it'll disappear, but those wounds that go deep into your hearts, it'll remain. just one action, one word..it'll hurt. fate cn fill the hollow part in us..n make us not so lonely, but i wonder..do i even haf the strength to do so? i've haf no pillars. no support. one day..after so many times of trying to stand stong, i'm afraid i'll collapse. i'll not cry. no matter wat happens, i'll not cry. i'll only stand stronger. i guess i haf mood swing today. jus feel so moody. dunt know y. yea..during the whole course i was alone..thinking things thru..about that day. wow..the impact of it was real strong. i couldnt forget, but i'll forgive. give it some time..it may heal. i believe. if u belive it can be done, it'll be done; but if u believe it cant be done, so be it. even if the heart breaks, it'll still pump, and life continues. i'll try my best to heal this wound that went so deep..it realli nid a lot of time. but time can make ppl feel loneli..hahaas. ok..i've decided..i'll be depressed again. n yes i will. no point being optimistic when u noe it'll not change anything rytes? n u noe..it's hard to be optimistic. ok..we learnt cpr today. ytd the thingsy is rescue breathing. n i dunt know anything lehs..so scared. tml test mahz..so scary. n in thursday is my guzheng xam le..i vv worried. the practise song still havent finish yet..lao shi last min den tell me..now i dunt noe wat to do le. n she'll b cuming tml morning, so i go np a bit later lor..hope when i reach there the test will not start. guess wat? i still rmb the first time i said sux. it all began when i was a sec 1..i didnt dare say the word sux ...tt was the vv first time i said it. hhaas. furni when i strat to think about it. how i hope the thing is conducted by st johns..then dunt nid learn so much mahz..cuz it'll onli b one day de..hahaas..but now..3 days lehs..will die de..n today was so gross lar..tok about amputated finger..i was practicalli crying there n when eunice asked if i'm ok..i realli cried..but i covered myself. yep..so baby rytes? but i realli vv scared. then my hands all turn jelly. i couldnt even open the pen cap lor..stupid me. n we haf to act vitims n help each other wrap the hand..head..n rib..n hip. the hip was so a,but the head was totalli kuku. hahaas. vv furni looking. eunice vv poor thing..cuz i tie until..dunt noe like wat like tt..n i vv blur de. hahaas. yea..so..did vv badli lor. n we had a lil race. evacuation. hav to help a casualty bandage this, bandage that and later help evacute him. n our dummy is zeng yuan. so pitiful lor..n when we evacuate we were like running vv close together..n i vv scared i would trip, so i asked shaun to take over me..i dunt wanna make zeng yuan fall. hahaas. he went all pale lar..it ended early cuz we were good..n they could go fast(: went to take photo with celeste later at nite. n i took the photo i was like..so ugly lar..eww..bad skills lar..tt person. make my face so found. i know i'm chubby, but my face is not round!. they put the photo to close to the face le..so it appeared like that lor..haiz..bad skills indeed. ate dinner there..n came home to practise guzheng. siao lar..i vv worried lehs..2 days more!

Monday, November 28, 2005 { 4:44 AM }

didnt blog for a rather long tim. considerable. ok..so i'll start frm sat.
sat:
went for kayaking in the morning. okies..reached there and found out we have to use the one man kayak this time. so they taught us everything all over again lor..started out with capsize drills. oh mien..ended up in that dumb man's grp. stupid..argh. and then we haf to kayak out into the sea. and i was like spinning while the others were far away. on several occassions, i wanted to gif up. whenever i spinned, i will be like," walao..y kip spinning de?" and i'll put dwn my paddle. hahaas. n whenever that dumbman sees that, he'll say,"dunt stop, quick paddle!" yea lar..and they all kip telling me to put my paddle low. but i realli cant mah. yeps. so later after lunch we had rescue. we learnt rescue. and during lunch i was like saying," today will haf thunder storm de. bcuz i watched the hk news ytd. and hk the satellite bigger then sing de mah..so more accurate!" soon it was like drizzling le lor. and when we went baq into the sea, it was cold. okies..but those instructor didnt care. and i saw lightning. and heard thunder. hahaas. i was happi bcuz ms kairahni was telling everyine that if it doesnt haf thunderstorm then muz cum find me lor..hahaas.thank god! so bcuz of the rain it all ened earlier(: muz thank me hor. everyone passed the one star and got the cert. hahaas. n tt stupid dumb man call sijia and i dunt noe who n me san1 ba1 lor..stupid. n he kip saying i kip whinning. n i dunt whine ok? hahas. ignore him lar. yay~ i passed the one star. nxt tym can go kayak le.

sun:
boring day lar. went for swimming. n i dunt wanna go de lor. bcuz it'll b all the kiddos onli mah. so nvm. n the coach will onli take care of them. so..wat's the point lar? hahaas. n he made us do the freestyle 100m with timing. n i came baq at about 2min 15 s. started a bit late. i aimed to like do it blow 2 de ok? but i failed. boohoo..muz go practise more. hahas. after that went home and slept for a while. then met mom in chinatown. after we ate our lunch then we returned home. and mom order arnold chicken. i at first wanted canadian pizza de lor..but she said it was a bit x. but i tink arnold chicken more x lor. the fries so lil.

mon:
suppose to go for the first aid course. early in the morning woke up. got ready to go to skul. and when i was walking half way, mom called me n told me that the time poseponed to 9. so stupid. luckily i was onli at the hawker center. went baq home lor. hahaas. woke up at 8.30 then walked to skul. yeps. reached the broadrick there n saw xueli, so we walked in together lor. when we reached there, we sat dwn. after a few mins, the course started. they taught us lots of things lar..like..how to check if an unconciouse patient has ani injuries which we cant see..sth like this. so diff. n when he tokked about the chopped finger, i was like..so disgusted. i almost cried. n when the other trainer said about the priothise thingy. save those that can be saved first. then those that going to die, dunt bother wasting yr time. i was like feeling so sad. life is so short. n..it's so realistic. i mean, if there's still a bit of breathe leaft, y not try first..they should save this patient. n it's sad if u r that person's kin. worse..if u see yr loved ones die in front of u. it really hurts me. that's y i cant b doctor. besides the fact that i'm scared of blood, when u see someone die bcuz u couldnt save this person, u'll feel depressed. juz like the way a vet cant save the animals. a normal person like me, or rather i as a owner who didnt take care of muncho during the period of time when he was sick cn feeling the suffering he felt, let alone a vet who'll b taking care of him. the way he turned yellow..n died during blood transfution..u see it. what'll u feel? i'm scared. i dunt wanna b a paramedic, a doc. i dunt wanna see ppl die. i dunt want. n i hope tml they'll stop tokking about blood. hahaas. disgusting thing. we did sum practicalli today. how to save someone who is choking and CPR lar. yea..n i blow until i breathless. "i'm a first aider. trust me." if me, i wont trust myself. do i look like someone that can b trusted? hahaas. i can even press the wrong bone. imagine. if anyone injured, dunt find me. if u want to make yr injury worse, then by all means, cum find me lor.. hahaa.(: *grins*

Wednesday, November 23, 2005 { 5:51 AM }

i totalli pissed off. my mom is an asshole. wat the hell..she act smart lar she. i feel like hacking her head off and make soup! think wat, she buy pizza for my dhen big deal arh? i tell you, it's no big deal. since i can dunt eat for so long, i dont nid you to buy also. idiotic moroon! wat..neva put the plug baq in onli wat. dhen cum n scold me. i vv unhappy with your bloody attitude. if u wanna go donate blood then go ahead, dont show me that u have plenty of it! argh..bossy old woman. come here and slam slam the table. i hate it when she acts smart. eww..look so gross to me. eekk..c'mon, there's this idiot who did the same exactli the same thing as me. either it's you, but i noe u'll neva own up, or it is her. but..juding frm yr IQ, i cn say tt it muz b u. everytym do the things, then forget. promise the thing, then forget. ppl forget cnt, but when u forget cn. wat's the problem with u? i follow the person who did tt wat, so y blame me eh? think wat, i dont nid your food..say i eat shit, say i stupid eh? i tell u, even though i'm stupid., i'm still not as "smart" as u. tt means..i dont know wat u eat le..rubbish arh? ha. dunt nid incineration plant le..giv u cn le mahz..haha! although my IQ also not vv high huh, but at least i dont act like you. dumb attitude. i hate u arh!!!!!!!

{ 5:19 AM }

today went for civil defence course at the dunt noe wat telok kurau 2nd cd division. woke up early in the morning and wen to skul. full in at 8 and had a lil check b4 we boarded the bus. when we reached there, we saw other skuls. at first i tot it's only for area 11 peeps, but it proved us wrong. it's for..i dont know how they put all the skuls together. we attended the course with temasak, broadrick, pingyi and damai. yep. we filled in a form and then later fall in as one whole squad. later we were moved back into the shade. and it was there where we learnt our course. we were taught how to unfold the stretcher and how to open it and close it. carry a casualty onto and off the stretcher. and those safety things. like wat to do during a bomb attack, gas leak, how to check gas leak..and at the end had a test. after the test it was like..those NCOs(the officers there) were like persuading some gals to dance end, from one person called until a lot more. haiyoh, made us wait there lor. went home at about 5. took a bue home with celeste. n i swear, the lt there is so small. hahaas. mom bought me a pizza. wow..so nice..yummy. i vv long didnt eat pizza le..i want more!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 { 6:28 AM }

i'm blogging(: hahaaas. another boring day. i can jolly well stay at home and rot man..hahaas. then listen to songs and listen to songs..n going to nother ppl's blog lor. this song is nice. the voice within, by chiristina aguilera.
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll break it
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Sunday, November 20, 2005 { 8:48 PM }

i think i'm mad about "hearts of fencing". a very nice show. so sweet. hahaas. and clover is nice. four leaved clover which signifies luck(: it all looked so nice. hahas. rather a boring day. i dont want to have piano today! hahaas. n i foreva dont wanna haf piano de lar. nvm. juz dwnloaded the song "shining friends" a vv nice song. toking about friends. i juz changed this blogskin ytd nite. and i added tt lyric. suppose to add the song, but dont know how cum cannot hear de. the song is realli vv nice..

Saturday, November 19, 2005 { 5:27 AM }

just woke up-.-, still so sleepy. haiz..when i came home from kayaking, the first thing i did was, eat. i'm so so hungry i tell u. i only ate a bun for breakfast, and i dont know why i felt so full. i couldnt eat during lunch..okies..the kayaking course was ok lar..wait, we are suppose to assemble at 8.45am in the concourse, but me n xueli thought it was 8, so we met at 7 at the bus-stop. but when we reached school, the school was total quiet. we saw wenjie at the gate and we found out that we are suppose to bring one pair of shoes that covers your feet. i mean like shoes lar..not sandals. we have to bring one shoes or shoes and sandals. so because we didnt bring shoes, we went to my house to get a pair. xueli asked celeste to help her bring. walked all the way home again. ok. came home and got a pair of shoes which i wore because i though we are suppose tot wear there. and it looked toot. but..nevermind lar. met up with celeste and we three walked to school together. assembled at the concourse and at about 8.45 we set off. reached there about hmm..not very sure, but the distance was sure far. at pasir ris lehs..of course lar. kept our bags into a locker and then sat down to some theory stuffs. the instructor was like so funny lar..and someone said he looked like a japanese. but i thought it was real lar..after that went to get the kayak. wow..so heavy i tell you, that kayak. carry like siao like that. then when we reach the beach we still have to unload that kayak..so tiring lar..i tell u. there was a swimming test. see if we can swim 50m with the "float". and all of us did it. later we had this cpaisze drills. oh man..this is so scary. whenever i do this, i'll scream, also dont know why. i'm scared. once i almost couldnt open my eyes. haiz..i'm so useless. but nevermind(: they taught us a lot of skils lar..how to paddle forward, how to paddle sideways. and i tell u, one of the instructor vv idiotic lor..yeps. then at first i was with xueli, we paddle paddle paddle..then dont know go where/ everyone go to the right, we went left. we lost control of the kayak=P we even bumbed into cch the kayak lehs..then they all laughing at us lar..and all shan3 us. hahaas. we later knocked into their instructor also=P then she very sarcastic. ask them to clap hands somemore. so malu. after lunch when we got back, the instructor asked me to change partner. sigh..i still think xueli and i more got mo4 qi4 lor..but my new partner was good at it. but it's like she later thinks i very useless..i very scared. but..i dont know. several times, the sky threatened to rain, but the oncoming storm subsided and the sky was clear all over again. we paddled very far and at 4 we returned to the area where we first started. at first we were allowed to bath for 1 hr, but then they say dont know what NS only have 10 mins, but hey, we are girls! okies..they gave us 20 mins more. me and xueli were the erm..considerably fast ones. and we had a talk to end all this afternoon's practise. what a tired day.

Friday, November 18, 2005 { 5:42 AM }

i'm really bored..and this is bad..hhaaas. went to minyu's blog and found this quiz, i like doing quizes. and i guess i wont skip this(:

12 person you know survey:

name 12 person you noe:
1. bi ran
2. ser qi min
3. tan yee hui
4. leow minyu
5. peh hui shan
6. yap hui san
7. chua xueli
8. joan
9. chua si min
10. seah yunhan
11. lim yiting
12. joy.

if #1 ask you to make up with them, would you?
hmm..i'm not les=P although i like homo(:

if #12 need a kidney, would you give them your kidney?
definitely..a yes!

does #7 know cpr?
er..after taking the medic course? hahaas.

is #2 going out with anyone?
maybe..i'm not sure lehs..

how cute is #4?
very cute! hahaas. of course lar..my father mahz..(:

does sugarhave a bad effect on #5?
how'd i know? sugar sure have a negative effect on ppl.

what is #8 fav. colour?
i dont know=P

what would you label #12?
a totally smart person!

have you ever been one date with #11?
sad to say, but no..

does #9 enjoy drawing?
i cant say lehs..she draw the pic, vv funie de, but vv nice. johnny cade with a coconut tree..heheex.

have you ever been on date with #3?
as i've said, i'm not a les, although i like homo(:

can #6 be a little crazy?
yes. with the right person..hahaas. wo3 bu2 yao4 zai4 kan4 dao4 ni3...

what's #2 fav food?
i'm not too sure, but then she everytym buy from the noodles selection. wanton mee. and i guess she likes chilli also.

what would you do if #3 turns out to be your biological brother/sister?
hahaas..what can i say..?

does #5 have pets?
no.

how many houses have #1 lived in?
a few bahz..

how did you meet #4?
in school. i forgot le..but dhen..it's in 2 cr. i noe.

what is #7 fav tv show?
erm..i onli noe she dont watch channel u(:

is #8 older or younger then u?
younger.

have #1 and #10 went out on a date?
i guess not. both oso not les mah..n they definiteli dont support homo..esp.#1.

give #9 a hug?
hehee.

what's your relationship with #10?
good friends!

who on the list is most likeli to marry #11?
i guess no bahz..she's the king lehs..married le..hahaas.

if your mom/dad married #12?
oh..NO!!! hahaas.

are #1 n #2 a lot alike?
no. so diff. one so talkative, one is not so.

what hair colour does #3 have?
black? a bit brownish?

what is #4 fav food?
lo mai kai? cuz she's been eating tt..n it's nice..

could #5 have secrete admirers?
yes. y not?

have you ridden in a car when #6 is driving it?
too young to drive, but i dont mind hitching a ride(:

can you picture #7 being old?
no..only add white hair only?

how r #8 cooking skills?
neva tried b4. n dunt dare try. hahaas.

is #9 younger or older than u?
younger..a few months.

would u ever make-out with #10?
make-out? dunt noe lehs..

wat is a random fact about #11?
she's a dog lover.

have you ever been to #12 house?
how i wished. only stand outside before..):

{ 4:31 AM }

holidays are so so so boring! cant stand the bordem. just finish watching ladder 49. wow..so touching. can tear when you watch it lorx..): i find it cool to be a firefighter, and once thought of becoming one when i watched the show, but on second thought, if i cant be a teacher, or a lawyer, then that may be my third choice. had guzheng lesson at 3. i woke up earlier today, just to make sure i could practise it for 2 hours, but then, my maid go and cook at the wrong time, so in the end i only practised for 1 and a half hour. hahaas. nevermind, at least teacher say improve lar..actually planned to go gym the..but then again, felt lazy and tired after guzheng lesson. i swear guzheng can cause one to exert too much energy, causing one to feel tired and muscles can really ache. tml have kayaking course. just bought the t-shirt and shorts from op on tuesday. hahaas. wonder how will the lesson tomorrow be like..? hope tomorrow dont rain..

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 { 5:20 AM }

rules of the game:
1) post 5 random or weird facts about yourself.
2) at the end, write 5 people's name, the people who you want, to do this quiz next. then tag on their blog and leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

1. i'm pessimistic.

2. i love orange colour and yellow colour.

3. i like joy. (maybe, maybe not. i dont know..)

4. 2 beliefs in live: "love makes the world go round" and "what is worth doing, is worth doing well".( these are the beliefs that pushed me onwards during the rocky and darkest moments.)

5. to do the things i want! i want to watch the sunset, sunrise..to lay under a sky full of stars, to be at the end of a rainbow..to shout at the top of the mountain..to go to the seven wonders of the world..



5 friends:
- minyu
- hui shan
- hui san
- bi ran



xueli, thank you for including me. hahas..love ya!
thanx pals for being there for me during my darkest moments..thank you for the encouragements and motivations u gaf. remain cheerful and believe the lil goodness in life! cherish everything around you no matter if it's good or bad. take it as a learning xperience if it's bad..wish you luck in yr future endeavours(:

Sunday, November 13, 2005 { 4:04 AM }

haiz..what a sunday. early in the morning went swimming. so idiotic lar..i tell you and the whole class was like, i'm the only secondary school kid there, the rest were like little kiddos lor..it was after that that i saw someone about my age going for swimming. and luckily it was after i finished that that person came(: hahaas. after swimming, i went home. walk home. as i walked home, i listened to the radio. to UFM 1003. lalala~which tells us the ratings of different songs. later bought my favourite food for lunch. i very long didnt eat le..then today managed to eat. yay~ hahaas. okies..went home and played piano. for one hour. wow. and straight after was guzheng practise. no joke. i played guzheng for hmm..about 2 hours. haiz..hahaas. but of course in between i napped. at night had guzheng lessons. and i'm looking forward to 9.30. because there's a very nice show(: hahaas. tomorrow still need to return to school. wonder if "it" will be there not. hahaas. and i think i look like a duck. dont know why. do i look like a duck? hahaas. when i "flatten" my mouth.

Friday, November 11, 2005 { 6:13 AM }

i'm posting for the second time today(: i'm utterly bored. n i tell u, bordem can kill. but i do have a choice though, i can choose to do my theory homework, but i figured out that i dont need to because monday i'll still need to return to school to make or rather tie the stage for those sec 3s. yups..today the np very stupid. ok lar..we can say the drills are rather slacky, but the pt was damn sucky lar..eww. n i had breathing difficulties lor, but i endured(: and i'm proud of myself. just because we were late for pt, we were punished by running to touch one "special" tree in front of us. and as we run, we must shout, "NCO, we're late." another one is "we'll not be late". stupid isnt it? hahaas. yeps...we ran twice. today those sec 1s didnt come for activity..because they have what drama night, so left us. the sec 2s. and i dont understand why cant they like play some sport games instead of doing pt? crazy de lor..and we only had about 16 people for pt. they expect us to shout loud enough to make the building "collapse". crazy. and then say what, we should shout not because we're scared of punishments, because we are a squad. crap lar..later we got told off by this idiotic person who like erm..because of a little thingy lar..make us go home late. argh. idiotic person! and i'm really very bored! many people opting out of lit..): why? i dont understand. what so bad about lit eh? but i know, i should not look at things at only my point view. i'm listening to "graduation" by vitamin c. drew back all my fond memories. the class, the squad. i still remember the POP when we were sec 1. those things just went wrongly and we sang in the dark, without the radio without the boys. as in the boys sing very soft. hahaas. and our class. so sad..i tell you, graduation cannot put this song, if not will cry de. haiz..and my mom is an idiot. grr..just because i didnt see my handphone and did not know she called, and i put it to silent, she started yelling at the top of her voice. you think only you can scream? no..my screaming is more ear piercing:P hahaas.
year after year passed
with a blinking of an eye,
with a flashing of the lights.
i never once imagined the days without you.
the loneliness and the agony
i could never describe.
parting is such sweet sorrow.
i knew this day would come,
but it came too fast.
with the memories kept in a bottle hiden deep inside our hearts,
we will share this little secrete now and forever.
you left your a footprint in my heart
with feeling of your pressence as a sovenieur,
our past will be like a shadow that follow us around.

Thursday, November 10, 2005 { 7:19 PM }

argh..later haf np. so tiring manx..holidays le, oso dunt wanna let us off..stupid fellows. hahaas. n i may get to see "it". hahaas. hope to see "it" lar. no sweat. wonder wat'll do later. hope we haf rt. heheex. i lazy lar..i dunt want pt! n dhen everyone's so sad lar. bcuz of the ppl who ened up in their class, no frienz mahz..haiz. i'm contented le lar..yes. n i haf nth else to blog. later cu, baq then continue(:

Wednesday, November 09, 2005 { 3:05 AM }

woke up early in da morning hoping i could catch a glimpse of the streaming results, but dhen, i found out it'll cum out onli abt afternoon like tt. haiyoh, wat a fruitless wait, so i decided to go eat my breakfast n dhen rest 4 a while. in the end, i ended up playing piano n guzheng(: hahaas. n at abt 2 i was online. but dhen the result was not out yet. so i waited n waited. so long lor..n they say cum out le, but i cant c it..n dhen fiona sent it to me. hhaaas. dhen i noe wat class i'm in. so happi. 3 hm. woo..i'm going to 3 hm nxt year. n i got to noe who'll b my classmates lor. erm..ok lar. there r 10 ppl frm cr gg to hm lehs..so mani ppl rytes? i vv happi. but i felt sumthing. hahaas. shant say..cuz i dunt wanna b bad=PpP so in de end i was xtremeli happi, dhunt noe wat to do. called bi ran n msmed her. hahaas. i vv happi! we muz jia yous nxt year. muz get zhong zheng spirit award. lit rox(: hm will rox my world, but cr haf roxed n will continue to rox. this will continue, a cycle tt'll neva end..neva. not now, not foreva.

Monday, November 07, 2005 { 6:49 AM }

after readin joy's email, it suddenli occur to me the pain of parting with my fellow classmates. the tyms we spent juz happen to race past my mind. i noe i'll miss them. the times we spent together, the tyms of laughter. those funni incident juz start to ring a bell. the tym we oppose maria as a class, the tym we oppose sissy as a whole. we started off as individuals, soon bcam cliques, later into individual working together towards a common goal. we won tt award. tt chung cheng spirit award. it realli surprised us. frm the beginnin of the year, i rmbed huang lao shi giving us tt tok abt being as a whole, united family. at tt tym, we didnt treasure the moments spent. we took it for granted bcuz we knew tt we still got tym. towards the end, we got to know each other more. frm a un-united class, we've cum so far..yet we haf to separate. it realli hurts me. haiz..the memories we create will last. although we may not haf chances to share our tots, tables, classroom..but the memories we shared remains in our heart like it's being carved. even though we r left in the world all alone, helpless n loneli, we still haf our memoires to stay. you r the ones who left footprints deep dwn inside my heart, n i'll neva forget u..neva..
(right click, dhen click encoding. click chinese simplified)
lyrics for our story..the song tt illustrates our feeling..
在你左右　还有多久 怎麽样才能让时间倒流　
每一分每一秒都珍重
握紧的手　不愿放松　十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流　我必须要走　要记得~~~
我们的故事真难忘　太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂　我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘　太多的情节要发展
不要放弃　因为有一天缘份会继续
我知道你寂寞　一个人确实好难过 思念是一种痛　
没有你叫我怎麽活 身边充满诱惑　
不坚定就容易犯错 你是否能看见未来的收获　
你愿意在耐心等候 我们的故事真难忘　太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂　我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘　太多的情节要发展
不要放弃　因为有一天缘份会继续 让我们一起演完

Friday, November 04, 2005 { 10:33 PM }

juz came baq frm tt two cr bbq. wooh..was real fun. hahaas. in da morning we had np. but was rather slack. hahaas. today no pt, dhen we had baton(dunt noe the correct spelling) drills, n i feel my hands r too short. okays..i admit. we had sum toks n briefing for tml, in case we say anithing bad larz..so bcuz the ncos noe we'll like discriminate np, so they make us say it once(: hahaas..dhen we had erm..drills. yes, drills. n we drilled with our other half of the sec 2 squad n the sec 1 squad. like 3 squad together like tt. then those ncos were like crazy le lar..kip making us march in a straight line or like march opp each other like wanna fight like tt. hahas. lame lame lame. but was damn funi lor..i kept laughing. cant stop, dhen one of the nco called us the baton squad. heheex. went home at abt 12.30, but by the tym i reached home, it is alreadi like 2.30 liao lorx..ate lunch+breakfast. n dhen went to haf a shower. later tok a nap so tt i cn haf enough energy to play later. hahaas..dhen at abt 4, celeste called me n i went to wait for her at the bus-stop dere lorx n we went east coast together. hahaas. reached the pit at abt 5 n went to find for minyu n hui shan dey all. n i called bi ran n found out she n yiting n the vegetarian vampire r at the beach there. hahaas, so went to find them. n me n bi ran rent a bike. two person one. n at first bi ran was realli unstable, bcuz i dunt noe how to balance mahz, it tok a while n a bucket of sweat..make me so worried as i dunt wanna fall. we rode all the way into the nature reserve n then to the park dere. came baq n played water with minyu. got wet n sandy. so we went to the toilets. we tok a "shower".got totalli wet. n met hui shan n crystal dere making sum water bombs. n i took one(: aft tt we went qi min's house to get sum towels..we walked the lar. n dwn dere sumthing funi happened. hahaas. i'm sorrie): nvm..we returned at the pit at abt erm..7.15 like tt n i asked qi min n si min to ride bike, but qi min cant control the bike cuz too heavy le mahz, so still haf to get bi ran, but bi ran eating, so i rode the bike wif lihui. aft tt dhen i rode with bi ran. so fun. n they r so mean..hahaas. wat kill me. hehs..n we returned the bike n dhen went to eat again lorx. dhen after eating, we played games with mr ang. hahaas. dhen was like so fast lorx..at first they played taiti(correct spelling?) n later heart attack. was funi(: soon he left, so we played snap lar. walao..their reaction so fast de..i cant even understand y ish it like tt n then they alreadi snap le. haiyoh..cn sumone help me improve my reaction skills? hahas..i had leg cramps. was so painful..i almost cried lor..kip holding onto bi ran..squeezing her hands..hahaas. today the last tym two courage is together. hope we'll b remain the same. nxt wed the result for streaming will b out, hope i get into 8lit. as mani ppl as possible in 2 cr can get in too...jia yous! no matter how far we r, our spirit of couragers remain(:

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 { 6:21 AM }

wat a bored day today. went baq to skul early in da morning juz to polish the rifles. walao..so stupid lar. n use sand paper to like scrap off those rust. y not juz buy us sum lemons n it'll do juz the job rytes? y go thru all yon troubles? haiz..carry the things up n down, n dhen sit there n start to scrap the rust out, n i tell u, i sux at it manz. juz cant do it well. dunt noe is no strength or wat n now my hands are all aching. haiz..n worst of all, it has the rusty smell. eew...but it smells betta now. of course lar..use fragrant soap mahz(: tml is public holidays, guess i'm going out with dad, cuz he say he wanna treat me. hahaas. yes, n friday still hav np in da morning n heng it's in da morning, not in the afternoon, if not we cant go for tt bbq le. n i dunt understand y it muz b at 5, cant play enoff de lor. wat, if ppl wanna rent bike, dhen cn onli play until like abt 7.30 like tt. haiz, by the tym, it'll b too late to play le lar, n of all days, y choose friday? but..since it's the last cr gathering, it's definiteli worth it! fishballs, i'm incharge of bringing fishballs. looking forward to tt day. juz now watched ming xing ou xiang. so funi. hahaas. "live your life like there's no tml." i like tt sentence a lot manz..realli inspirin.